Monday, October 18, 2010

Disorientation

Since I've got here I feel like everything has been just slightly off. Like I am living in Bizarro world or something. I don't know how to explain it because I don't really feel like I am in a foreign country since I'm surrounded by other nationalities. I don't really feel like there is a huge cultural difference from New York City. I guess there is no more of a jump from New York City to London then there is for every-town USA to New York City so it doesn't feel like I am in a totally foreign culture but there are all these things that keep throwing me off. Everything is just enough off to make feel like I am retarded.
I feel like I have developed a speech impediment because of the extra time trying to remember the right words to use. I feel a little deaf because I have to ask everyone to repeat themselves because I understand all the words but the sentences they use them is seems like random words strung together. I feel a little slow because I need to do so many conversions for money and weight in my head. I am a little clumsy because the keyboards at school are all the british key layout and I have the U.S. layout on my laptop so typos are constant when switching between the two.I feel clumsy because everything around is smaller so I am a giant. I don't feel like I can trust my vision because all the paper is just a little different size (A4 instead of 8.5 x 11). I don't feel like I can trust my internal sense of direction because none of the roads are straight and it is so easy for me to get lost and every time I try to cross the road all I have to force myself to look both ways since I can never keep straight which way the cars are on the road.

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